When you drive your car through an orange orchard to take your kids to school, you definitely know you’re not in Kansas anymore. Yes, we actually did it! It took some months of preparation but a couple of weeks ago we left our house and our country and landed in a whole new world.
So what happens when you decide to change a lot of parameters in your life all at once? From job to no job. From winter to (swedish) summer. From city to little village, etc. Well, for me it started with influenza. I guess not so weird that my body told me to lie down after having pushed myself quite hard for a long time. After that I started to take daily walks in Serra Gelada, a beautiful nature reserve close to our house. In the end there is a lighthouse and from there you can see nothing but sea and horizon. It’s a fantastic daily reminder that the sky, literally, is the limit.
And then my mind kicked in. And it (or he, I call him Lennart*) goes like: Oh my God what are you doing, are you crazy? Here you are, doing absolutely nothing. Everyone else is doing something in their life. Go and find something to do. You want to stay here longer than half a year? Go and find a way to make money, and do it now. Recognize this type of voice? Everyone has their own Lennart, right?
So here I am right now. Being with Lennart every day, landing in the space of not-knowing but most of all: being OK with not doing anything for the moment. It’s harder than I imagined because all my adult life I have done stuff, been productive, made money, and all of sudden everything quiets down. But this is exactly why we moved here; to challenge ourselves by stepping out of this box which just became too small. I’m convinced that something new in my life can only grow out of a space of quiet and reflection (as well as a healthy body) so up the mountain I go every day…
To be continued!
*In my personal life, I know some people called Lennart. To clarify: me naming the voice of my mind Lennart is in no way related to any of these people.
Photo (Serra Gelada): my husband ♥