Yesterday morning I opened the trash can in my kitchen and found an empty crisp bag. Immediately I felt my body tense up and I got this panicky feeling that I’m so used to these days. You would think that this is about my family’s late-night snacking or something like that. It is not. It…

The Dark Side Of The Spiritual World
Recently I’ve felt drawn to watching documentaries about cults and other high-control groups. For example The Vow which tells a fascinating story about NXIVM, an organization selling personal development courses that attracted thousands of people with a leader who was viewed by many as an enlightened human being. This person however turned out to be…

I Don't Know
When I was in my mid-twenties my two kids were born. For a total of three years at the beginning of the new millennium I completely immersed myself in motherhood while being fulltime at home with them. And while I loved many parts of these years I also look back at this period of my…

Long Covid - WHYLD podcast
Life works in magical ways…. A couple of months ago I sat down and wrote Wintering – a way for me to share how I was feeling at that time. I wrote about Long Covid and how I’m still not fully recovered from it even though it’s been almost three years since I got ill.…

Wintering
Most days I go to bed at 21.00. I read a few pages in my book and fall asleep, waking up nine hours later with a body that does not feel rested at all. Since March 2020 I have not woken up a single morning feeling that I have energy in my body. It’s just…