This page is for you who has covid-19 as well as you who is healthy and would like to read a personal story about how this virus can affect a person, both physically and mentally.
My name is Nanda and I believe in the power of sharing, vulnerability and honesty. From this space I have chosen to write and publish my experience of having (long-term) covid-19. Thousands of people have read my writing so far and I have received an overwhelming amount of feedback (thank you!) on the value of it in these times.
I have therefore decided to create this page which contains an overview of my different writings about covid-19 so they are easy to find based on what you want to read about.
It would be brilliant if this page could spread as much as possible, so it can reach even more people in these times. Feel free to share it in your circles.
I sincerely hope that my words can be of help or inspiration to you!
With love ♥
After a growing sense of being ill with different (weird) symptoms for nine days, I woke up in the middle of the night and could hardly breathe. I seriously thought I was going to die. Here is what I did in this acute situation and what helped me cope.
After a month of being really ill, it felt like I was inside a cocoon where everything was upside down and nothing in my life felt certain anymore. I found some great tips on how to deal with experiencing the so-called liminal space of being and the value of truly letting go.
From pretty much declaring myself healthy after six weeks, I suddenly experienced a major relapse in symptoms that made me end up in a Corona-tent outside the hospital. I was checked out and sent home with orders to fully rest. It made me reflect upon gratitude for life.
I declared myself healthy and decided to share my tips and insights I gained from having covid-19. Oh, how happy I was! Little did I know that it was far from over…
Major relapse AGAIN. This time I experienced severe brain fog. I decided to call it Corona Brain. This is when anxiety started with thoughts such as What if I will never get rid of this completely? Apart from difficulty to breathe, Corona Brain is by far the worst and most scary symptom I have experienced so far. Here is my description on how Corona Brain felt for me.
By this time I hardly recognized my body anymore as it had so many different symptoms. So how did I cope with all of them at the same time and not lose my mind completely? Here is a description of a major key I found in dealing with covid-19 symptoms.
I joined several online support groups for people with covid-19 and the stories of thousands of people all over the world were shocking to read. As these groups are private, I decided I wanted to compile some of these voices (anonymously of course) in an attempt to raise awareness for the group of people who are dealing with long-haul covid-19. I wrote about people’s voices in English, Swedish and Dutch as well as listed links to different online support groups.
Finally the news covered a positive event! The SpaceX launch inspired me tremendously and made me reflect on our incredible capacity as human beings to achieve pretty much anything. I realized that I have a choice where I put my focus in the midst of my ongoing symptoms and that gave me some relief.
I noticed that many people aren’t believed by their family/friends and even doctors so I felt the need to explain, once and for all: Covid-19 is a physical problem, not a spiritual or mental one. I wrote about my biggest resource in dealing with long-haul covid-19.
Spoon theory! I’d never heard of it but it really helped me a lot in dealing with post viral fatigue. Here is what the Spoon-theory is about and how you can use it to deal with post viral fatigue.
Day 105. I celebrate small physical victories (a walk on my street!) while at the same time keeping focus on my mental health and describe what helps me at this moment today.
I realize that I haven’t worn jeans or a bra since March 12th and I sat down to calculate how many episodes of different TV series I have seen so far (hint: it’s crazy). Here is a list of (weird) details of my life these days. Also, a deep respect for anyone who is dealing with serious health conditions…!
Fighter, warrior. Victim, sufferer. I notice that these words are sometimes used to describe people with covid-19 (or any other health condition really). I feel a resistance towards these words and inquired into why this is.
I’m having more and more good days! I also inquired into my sadness and what it means to have a loving attitude towards myself.
These are my stories so far. If I publish more, I will include them on this page as well.
Thank you for reading!
Photo: Me in my garden in week 14 – made on canva.com