This page is for you who has covid-19 as well as you who is healthy and would like to read a personal story about how this virus can affect a person, both physically and mentally.
My name is Nanda and I believe in the power of sharing, vulnerability and honesty. From this space I have chosen to write and publish my experience of having (long-term) covid-19. Thousands of people have read my writing so far and I have received an overwhelming amount of feedback (thank you!) on the value of it in these times, which touches me deeply.
I have therefore decided to create this page which contains an overview of my different writings about covid-19 so they are easy to find based on what you want to read about (click on the headlines to read the full articles).
It would be brilliant if this page could spread as much as possible, so it can reach even more people in these times. Feel free to share it in your circles.
I sincerely hope that my words can be of help or inspiration to you!
With love ♥
After a growing sense of being ill with different (weird) symptoms for nine days, I woke up in the middle of the night and could hardly breathe. I seriously thought I was going to die. Here is what I did in this acute situation and what helped me cope.
After a month of being really ill, it felt like I was inside a cocoon where everything was upside down and nothing in my life felt certain anymore. I found some great tips on how to deal with experiencing the so-called liminal space of being and the value of truly letting go.
From pretty much declaring myself healthy after six weeks, I suddenly experienced a major relapse in symptoms that made me end up in a Corona-tent outside the hospital. I was checked out and sent home with orders to fully rest. It made me reflect upon gratitude for life.
I declared myself healthy and decided to share my tips and insights I gained from having covid-19. Oh, how happy I was! Little did I know that it was far from over…
Major relapse AGAIN. This time I experienced severe brain fog. I decided to call it Corona Brain. This is when anxiety started with thoughts such as What if I will never get rid of this completely? Apart from difficulty to breathe, Corona Brain is by far the worst and most scary symptom I have experienced so far. Here is my description on how Corona Brain felt for me.
By this time I hardly recognized my body anymore as it had so many different symptoms. So how did I cope with all of them at the same time and not lose my mind completely? Here is a description of a major key I found in dealing with covid-19 symptoms.
I joined several online support groups for people with covid-19 and the stories of thousands of people all over the world were shocking to read. As these groups are private, I decided I wanted to compile some of these voices (anonymously of course) in an attempt to raise awareness for the group of people who are dealing with long-haul covid-19. I wrote about people’s voices in English, Swedish and Dutch as well as listed links to different online support groups.
Finally the news covered a positive event! The SpaceX launch inspired me tremendously and made me reflect on our incredible capacity as human beings to achieve pretty much anything. I realized that I have a choice where I put my focus in the midst of my ongoing symptoms and that gave me some relief.
I noticed that many people aren’t believed by their family/friends and even doctors so I felt the need to explain, once and for all: Covid-19 is a physical problem, not a spiritual or mental one. I wrote about my biggest resource in dealing with long-haul covid-19.
Spoon theory! I’d never heard of it but it really helped me a lot in dealing with post viral fatigue. Here is what the Spoon-theory is about and how you can use it to deal with post viral fatigue.
Day 105. I celebrate small physical victories (a walk on my street!) while at the same time keeping focus on my mental health and describe what helps me at this moment today.
I realize that I haven’t worn jeans or a bra since March 12th and I sat down to calculate how many episodes of different TV series I have seen so far (hint: it’s crazy). Here is a list of (weird) details of my life these days. Also, a deep respect for anyone who is dealing with serious health conditions…!
Fighter, warrior. Victim, sufferer. I notice that these words are sometimes used to describe people with covid-19 (or any other health condition really). I feel a resistance towards these words and inquired into why this is.
I’m having more and more good days! I also inquired into my sadness and what it means to have a loving attitude towards myself.
Three years ago, I took a six-month timeout and moved to a little village by the sea in Spain because I wanted to know what would happen in my life if I stopped all doing and started just being. It turns out: I don’t have to move to another country to learn about myself and being in life, having Long Covid fixes that for me, right here at home as well! Here are some more insights and two things that help me greatly in my recovery.
For the first time in five months I had the energy to leave my house in Stockholm and travel to the Swedish countryside to stay at a house in Astrid Lindgren’s Bullerbyn (Noisy Village). I notice how out of touch I feel with living a ‘normal’ life and how I’m still fearful of relapsing.
A part of me feels like a soldier returning home from having fought a war. I realize I need time in order for my body to heal and process everything that’s happened for the past 5.5 months. I also find a thread in all my stories about covid-19 and the gift I believe this experience has given me.
On the day that marks six months for me, I decided to write an addition to my previous Tips & Insights-post that I wrote in Week 9 (when I thought it was all behind me). A lot has happened since then and there is a huge difference between being ill for nine weeks and being ill for six months, I have noticed. So here are five more tips and insights from me.
I feel incredibly alive! I also feel that Long Covid is one of the biggest gifts of my life (I realize that this might be a provocative statement to some of you). Here is my answer to why I feel this way.
How do I know which information about covid-19 and Long Covid is true? This is a question I have asked myself a lot over the past months. After watching the Netflix documentary /The Social Dilemma_ I was once again made super-aware of ‘the dark side of tech’ as it highlights a global situation that I believe deserves to be placed right next to climate change in terms of its threat to us as human beings. Here is why I feel this way.
Apparently this is my being-inspired-by-stuff-I-see-on-Netflix period. This time I watched Away with Hilary Swank about (spoiler alert!) the first humans to land on Mars. Complete fiction of course but still it made me ugly-cry in front of my TV as I somehow connect the story of the series to my own journey of the past 28 weeks.
I feel a bit all over the place this week. My 100th blog post and #23 of these Corona Chronicles that now have been read more than 20.000 times by people from all over the world (!). Here is how I (try to) cope with my reality today.
I feel like I’ve lost my acceptance. This frustrates me! Here is how I used my own words to get out of the hole I dug myself into.
I discovered a brilliant website that allows me to virtually open different windows all over the world. I noticed how soothing this feels for me and also how it inspires me to just be.
I haven’t reached the top of my mountain yet, but I’m getting close! This is my story about mountain-climbing, turtle-stepping my way through Long Covid and what I’m saying ‘yes’ and ‘no’ to these days.
I found new words to describe how Long Covid feels (it includes lots of fish-references). I also noticed how a sudden ‘normal’ illness unexpectedly became a huge relief for my body and….well, yes: the US elections also became a part of this update.
8+ months in, 95% “there”. This week I wrote about awareness and how covid is teaching me to be in my body.
These are my stories so far. If I publish more, I will include them on this page as well.
Thank you for reading!
Photo: Me in my garden in week 14 – made on canva.com